Do all guys changed after they have got you ?

Ever once , i was afraid , afraid to love .
But J came by , shown me what it is to be important to a person , what it is to be loved by a person and what it is to be able to trust that this love is what every lady yearns for.
I believe , and i fallen so deep that i even thought , happy marriage came knocking on my door and i was overjoyed.
But i forgotten how a love that is so deep , could turn torturing any moment of time .
I ever gave up crying , as crying do not solve anything.
Til yesterday night , i realised , thou it does not solve anything , its a relieve to be able to tear .
Its difficult for me to tear , but the pouring rain helped.
Yet i ever thought people who tear under pouring rain , are dumb .
Eventually , i became this dumb one .
As i sat in the pouring rain , reminiscing til the sky is clear .
I realised , i miss how he used to treat me ,so badly.
I miss how he wanted to spend more time with me , regardless of whether he got any sleep.
I miss how he told me , how much he wanted to be with me .
I miss how he make effort to love me , care and worry for me.
I miss how he could get happy over me .
I miss how his smile can light up my day .
I miss how I revolve over his life at that point of time .

I miss that love because I love him.


The moment i walked away myself , aimlessly .
My heart screams .
I have fallen apart.

Im clouded with fear.
Its a wonder how emotions , could degrade a person , so badly .
-♠Etched with a kiss*